Motown, Movietown & Me.

So lately there’s been so much talk about how Detroit is like HollyHood. The Motown version of Hollywood.

Since the automotive industry tanked and the movie industry picked up thanks to the incentives, there HAS been a lot of stuff filmed here. Far more than before. There have always been a lot of indie projects filmed here in Detroit. I can tell you of an indie low/no budget being filmed at any given moment. Often I can name three going on at once. It’s just unusual that so many studio films have come here to cash in on the incentives.

I’m not complaining. In fact, I’ve gotten paid more in the past year than I got all put together before the incentives started. Granted, most of it is from doing background work, but it’s still being on set somewhere. I definitely have great memories of doing Machine Gun Preacher which has been talked about in other posts. In fact, MGP was my first ever Hollywood Wrap Party, where I was insane enough to get up and sing Paradise City with Marc Forster and Gerard Butler in attendance. I’m sorry Michael Shannon wasn’t at the party, though. I really enjoyed talking to him in my days on set and was hoping to introduce my sister to him. (Yes, my sister was my hot date. My husband had other plans that night so it worked out well! Plus after I left, my sister’s newfound friends on crew snuck my other sister and her friend into the party!)

Anyway, I’m starting to see these movies come out now that have roles in them for which I auditioned but did not get a part. It’s a strange feeling, seeing someone on screen and thinking ‘That was almost me…’ but I’ve always believed that if I don’t get a part, it’s for a reason. Not necessarily a bad one, just that for some reason, it didn’t work out that the universe vibed the right way and instead it will vibe again when I am ready for it.

Still, this is the first time that this has happened. I was watching the second episode of Detroit 187, an episode for which I auditioned, and I realized that… the part I auditioned for (of a suspect in a murder where someone was pushed overboard) was entirely cut out. I’d waited and waited to see who got the part and how they did with it, but it wasn’t even THERE. It makes me wonder if the universe kinda knew that the part would get cut so decided not to line up for me to get it. My second audition for the show was on a day I couldn’t make it, which also worked out because my friend Mary was auditioning for the same role and I hate going up against her. The only time we ever end up against each other is when the role is very generic and it doesn’t matter if the actress is super skinny (Mary) or super curvy (me). So luckily, we aren’t up against each other that often anyway.

So I sat there thinking ‘Huh. I’m kinda glad I didn’t get that part. Maybe now I can be in a roller derby scene since one of the main characters is a derby girl in her off hours!’ and then I realized that I wasn’t even sad I didn’t get the part. Even if it hadn’t been cut, I’d still be fine with it. I have progressed past the point of wrapping myself up into the whole thing and believing that if I don’t get the part, I am a failure as an actress and as a human being. I’ve been very happy with the roles I’ve accepted so far (yes, even though I’m often cast as the drug dealer or the hooker) and I think it’s all working out for the best.

Besides, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I didn’t wanna push anyone overboard, anyway. I might mess up my hair.